Happy Holidays everyone, hope you're getting what you need for the season and being with the people you love. Hope you get plenty of cool stuff for Xmas especially for the kids, I got my shopping done a while ago for really on the two people in my life, my mom and my wife.
It has been a hard year more than most in recent times and still here, fighting and making the most of it. The problem is at times, I get so caught up with certain things that have affected me in ways I don't wish to discuss. This season did get a little harder since I lost a family member less than a week ago and although I wasn't close to him, he was still family and I hope his kids will be ok, I wish I can be with them especially one that is only a couple months younger than me and grieve with them.
It's difficult at times coming to grips to how much of a rollercoaster this year has been and where I want to be along with where I feel most valued at. When it comes to online stuff, yeah I sell a few things here and there and share my knowledge of fitness in my own way but especially with all the ups and downs emotionally, I got caught up in arguments and put myself in situations where ball busting was just a little over the top.
I signed up on a forum for the 4th or 5th time and left after one day (partially because I hated the name I put up) mainly because I thought if I just stick with sharing knowledge I'd be fine, but I wasn't. The majority of people on this forum just love to knock on me and ridicule me and put a bad taste in my mouth. They're not my friends, they're a lot older but most of the time don't have much value in the way of fitness because they don't really give a damn about grouping together and helping others, they're out for themselves and just have a place to let out their old man grumpiness along with busting each others balls. That's not the type of environment I want to associate with, I need to finally accept that.
I' am very grateful for the positive things that are happening in my life and that in itself is a gift. The gift I feel I need to give myself is to trust more of my intuition, be aware of what I'm going into and do better as a person. That sounds like more than one gift but it's a tie in. This coming year will have many unexpected things but the end game is to have a greater attitude and bask in the things that do matter more than the trash that can swarm on you if you let it. Value what works and surround myself with people that lift me up more than letting in those that make me feel like I have no value to myself or others. One group I'm very thankful for is the Isometric Group I'm a part of on Facebook and how much those guys inspire me everyday to do what I love and that it is contributing to something.
It isn't an ego thing to give a gift to yourself if you truly understand the concept of it. It doesn't have to be physical, it can be something comforting from an emotional and mental format that is meant for you. Although I believe in helping others as much as possible, we also need to make time for ourselves and reflect on the important things that keep us going and becoming better in the process. We are only human and can do so much before it consumes and overwhelms us. We need to learn to love ourselves as much as we love the people in our lives and what we love to do. This is the only life we have and each day should be a time to know that you still can do a little better and have greater attitudes towards yourself, your family, friends and your overall health.
Don't be afraid to gift yourself and make it valuable to you and something that is important to help you on your journey. Have the most amazingly awesome holidays wherever you and if you're just by yourself, make it fun and something that makes you happy. I'm grateful for all of you and you have helped me learn things I continue to discover.
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When You get to a certain age You pretty much don't care what people think and You say what You want. I don't think they hate You, just after middle age men bust balls. I would say people born in the 80's on are a little sensitive. Middle age and above men don't hold their tongue.
You are a very nice young man and have a knack for writing. You should use Your skills for positive things not for the negative. Don't worry about what people think about You. Most of the time they aren't really thinking bad about You. Stop letting people get in Your head. Don't make a mountain out of a mole hill. The internet is a fake world, it's not worth getting upset over. Keep pushing forward my younger brother!
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