What Is It That We Truly Need To Prove?

 Many people in this world have a need to prove something to either themselves, somebody else or both. We have this mentality that if we get in good graces with others or proven ourselves worthy, it aught to come with some kind of reward or sense of belonging. The truth is, what we try to prove, won't always work out in our favor and no matter how hard we try, it sometimes ends in tragedy not by death but by never getting the satisfaction that we have accomplished it.

I'm no exception to the rule of trying to prove myself to others or to myself entirely. There've been many times where no matter how hard I try, I don't feel something ever came out good but at other times, I have made a difference and it worked out amazingly. Many have this mentality whether from their background growing up or learning from mistakes along the way that proving you're beyond capable and forcibly working yourself to death in order to build a life for yourself or for someone else is both admirable but also has it's own set of tragedy. I do believe in hard work and doing the best to my abilities to create a life but also when kids come into the picture, I don't want to be so broken down that by the time they get married that I can't either walk a daughter down the aisle or stand up and be able to hug my son and congratulate him. 

In life, there are those moments that change your entire universe and you need to make a choice of developing a greater life for another and bust your ass so they can live better, I do understand that but trying to prove how much you bust your ass doesn't always mean you'll be a better person or even a good person. There are very hard working people out there who are complete assholes and never show an ounce of compassion or encouragement towards others, even their own and there are those who have compassion and understanding for others and work hard with a sense of balance and solidifying their level of being a good person beyond the work. 

In life, many don't give a damn about you whether you prove yourself worthy or not. Many try to prove to their boss, their spouse, their friends, their family that being somewhat of a superhuman will make you the king/queen of the circle, but it doesn't always end up that way. In reality, when we prove ourselves too much, it bites us in the ass. So how do we show people we are worthy of anything either as a hard worker or redeeming ourselves after fallen on hard times or just being in someone's good graces and hoping they would let us in somewhere? The truth is, not everyone will accept you no matter how much you want them to. It isn't a bad thing to prove something and at times not only do people accept us, they embrace it and we become to accept ourselves and made it work. 

I've had to prove myself over and over many times in my life from learning how to speak well at 5 years old, showing how strong I 'am in various formats and proving that I can come back from a stupid jump at 20 years old and rehab on my own. Some things didn't always pan out in my favor, some did but often I feel it's never enough and I have to keep proving myself either for me or to others when there are people out there I have no business whatsoever proving myself to and yet for some reason I do it.  I guess I'm one of those people like many who just wants to be accepted, understood and knowing I made a positive impact somehow but I know deep down, not many will accept me, understand me or see any positive influence. What good is it to prove yourself to others when in some cases there isn't a chance in hell you'll ever be worthy or accomplish anything? The only things in life that need to proven are the ones worth fighting for. 

Do you remember the line from the Blue Fairy in Pinocchio, "Prove yourself brave, truthful and unselfish and someday you'll be a real boy." Well, not all of us are brave, very few are truthful and there are a lot of selfish people out there but if we prove to ourselves that we can stick up for what's right, be honest about who we are and show a little more compassion, there's a chance we can show the true nature of our being by just being us. That's where the heart and soul of that line I feel has meaning.

What is there to truly prove? That we find a way to live and make the most of this life because once we are gone, proving something becomes non-existent and we can only carry on in the afterlife where you have absolutely nothing to prove and just be a part of the everlasting universe.